Back To Work

Today is my first day at my new job. I'm actually really excited to begin something new. It's been 9 years since I started a new job, so I'm at a complete loss of how it will go. I know that God brought this job to me, so everything will be great. There will be a learning curve, but hopefully I catch on quick.

In my last post about being a working mom, I was really anxious to go back. I was looking at 'going back to work' as some monumental doomsday headed my way. I tend to do that with a lot of things. I checked out a favorite blog of mine The Graceful Mom for some encouragement. One of the posts I read there really hit home the next few days. She spoke about how working moms are wired different than stay at home moms. After reading this post, I realized how true it was. I stayed home for two weeks and the second week I was excited to go back. I loved spending time with Peanut, and cooking, and even enjoyed {attempt}keeping the house clean. I had so many projects I wanted to get done. Somehow the time flew by so quickly and the only project I finished was hubby assigned-to clean out some of my clothes.

I realized I have a hard time organizing my day as much when I'm home. Part of the day I don't know what to do with my time, the other part I'm frantically cleaning, budgeting, cooking, grocery shopping, and more. I also realized it's nice being at work and having some 'me' time. I feel much more responsible to have a perfect home when I'm home all day than when I'm working 40 hours a week.

I want to be a stay at home mom, but now I realize that when the time comes it will take getting used to. It will take time to re-wire. I praise God for this difference in me and other working moms. I agree with Bethany from The Graceful Mom that it's a tool he uses to remind us that he has us where he wants us for now.